All of a sudden it seems like all kinds of Hell has broken loose in our home. It is laughable if it weren’t so stressful.
1. Car gets a flat tire. No biggie right? All cars gets flats from time to time. Only THIS time we take the car in to find out that ALL tires need to be replaced. We could only afford the shock of one tire at this time and it was $300. SO to replace all tires we are looking at $1200. Yikes.
2. We call a chimney sweep to come out and clean the wood stove that we inherited (we love this stove by the way). Well, what do you know… chimney needs more than a cleaning. To the tune of a bout $1000. This is most concerning because the heat pump we have in ancient. This was my only real concern about buying this home. And now we are relying on it solely for heat. Oh, and did I mention that Winter has shown up earlier than I ever remember this year? It is snowing right now as I type in Oklahoma. VERY unusual for us!
3. Last night I head out for a special occasion I notice that I am loosing the ability to accelerate. I am driving the non-bad-tire vehicle because it is safer than driving on bad tires right?? Well, what do you know- I don’t get very far. This truck completely looses the ability to drive at all. Looks like the transmission had completely died. WOW. At this point my stress over these things has caused me to just laugh. I mean what else could go wrong? I won’t even begin to mention the external stresses that I am feeling from loved ones around me who are suffering.
So needless to say I feel overwhelmed. And then today my husband asked if we should post pone our process to Foster. Hm…. I started to think over that one. I begin to speak with my hubby over the thought, he reveals that he brought it up as a way for me to have the freedom to back out or delay if I felt the need. I appreciate him so much for this. What a gift he is to me. But as I began to talk to him about it, he said something very profound. He told me that he thinks we are on the brink of doing something really good, and these are obstacles to make us quit. WOW. As these words leave his lips we are both shocked at this revelation. I think he hit the nail on the head.
We would not be fostering if we were not felt called to do so. And I am not sure what our future holds. But I think that there are greater forces at work that would have us not answer what God has laid on our hearts. I hope this means that we are just on the brink of doing something really good. Really awesome.
We literally have our final meeting in TWO days to finalize the process to foster. Is it coincidence that these things would all happen within days of us doing so? I don’t have the answer, but the question is very moving. I am thankful my husband has had the ability to see through it all to ask. I lift my hands and say I have no idea how every thing is going to work out, but I have the faith that it will. We are pressing on. I think we are on the brink of something great and we will not be deterred.